Har lekt lite med redigerings verktygen och lyckats få fram lite coola bilder. Vad tycks?

Den till vänster är orginalet och den till höger är den redigerade 

 

Skrivandet går segt. Både på bloggen och på Beneath the facade. Jag har ingen insperation över huvudtaget, hittar ingen film, bok, teckning eller någon musik som ger mig lust att skriva. Vanligtvis brukar jag hitta insperation genom mina känslor, som brukar komma ifrån att jag sett, läst eller hört något. Men nu hittar jag inte insperation någonstans. En kompis har skickat över hennes spellista till mig så jag ska se om jag kan hitta lite bra låtar att lyssna på, men det verkar rätt så mörkt för tillfället. Har ni några tips på låtar, filmer eller böcker är det bara att kommentera eller mejla. Glöm inte heller att tipsa om böcker till mitt projekt. Just nu håller jag på att läsa Eld av Mats Strandberg. Har även läst Älskar - hatar och Cirkeln. Om ni har läst mina andra inlägg så vet ni att jag ska läsa så många böcker som möjlig över sommaren, hittills har jag fått in riktigt många. Bland annat Kathrine Cashores serire De utvalda, samt Sankta Psyko, Vampire Academy, Fallen Ängel mm. Det behövs dock fler böcker, så det är bara att tipsa!

Har brist på saker att skriva om så jag tänkte skriva upp lite fakta om mig som ni säkert inte visste :)

 

• Låten Sail med Awolnation är det enda som kan lugna ner mig när jag är arg
• Jag är vänsterhänt
• Min favorit blomma är Orkidéer eller Gula rosor
• Min favorit bok för tillfället är Yttersta Offret av Richelle Mead
• Jag tre syskon, varav alla är yngre
• Jag gråter när jag är arg
• Min favorit choklad är den rätt så nya smaken av lakris och mjölkchoklad
• Jag är född i norge
• Jag har ridit i 11 år
• Jag dricker inte cola
• Jag biter på naglarna
• Rödblond är min naturliga hårfärg
• Jag vill utbilda mig till läkare 
• Min favorit färg är brun
• Jag tycker att Ben Barnes är den absolut snyggaste människan i hela världen

Kommer inte på något speciellt att skriva om, så därför tänkte jag berätta lite om hur min dag kommer se ut. Först så ska jag städa rummet och fixa lite med disken och liknande, sedan ska jag sticka till stallet och rida. Idag är en avgörande dag för ridningen då jag inte är så säker på om jag vill fortsätta. Jag älskar verkligen att rida och det är en del av mig men hästen jag rider nu är otrygg i både spår och i skogen + att de jag rider för är fruktansvärt otrevliga. Så det ser inte så ljust ut för ridningen nu. Kanske om jag hittar någon annan att rida hos så kan jag börja igen, men annars kommer ridningen läggas på hyllan ett tag.

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Förutom den stora ridningsfrågan så kommer jag att ÄNTLIGEN  få appar påmin telefon idag. Ni som känner mig vet ju hur paranoid och överbeskyddande mamma är, men nu har hon ätnligen gett med sig och jag ska skaffa ett apple-id och en massa appar idag. Mer info om kik, instagram mm kommer senare idag :)

 

As we walked deeper in to the house the smell grew stronger and stronger. From time to time, Alec turned his head and gave me a glance, as if to see that I was okay. The glances touch me and I blushed every time his gaze met mine. Jane also gave me glances. But they weren’t friendly and caring; they were full of hate and clearly scream stay away from my brother. I didn’t quite understand her looks; I wasn’t the one who turned his head at me to check if I was okay every few minutes. I did, however, look at the back of Alec’s head to gather strength when I started to feel scared. But how could Jane see and know that? Did she have another gift that I wasn’t aware about? Could she also read minds like my dad and Aro? Not likely. The thought of mindreading and my dad made my heart ache, and I was short of breath for a half second, before I gathered myself and forced my mind to focus on the mission. A creak of someone stepping on the floor made every one freeze. A sound of a pounding heart echoed through the whole house. And then I recognized the smell. How could I’ve not have known it sooner? I’d been around that smell since the second I was born. The woody, harsh smell, just soft enough to not burn my nose. The smell a very special person had. The smell that lingered in the house was the smell of werewolf.

For a few seconds I couldn’t move. All I could think about was Jacob, my dear Jacob. Even though he’d left me and even though he’d hurt me, he still had a place in my heart. All the sorrow and the hate were gone and all I could think about was Jacob. His smile, his humor, and the way he used to bug Rosalie. I just wanted him to hug me and stroke my hair the way he used to and tell me that everything was going to be okay. My face lit up and I waited for Jacob to walk around the corner. But it wasn’t Jacob who walked came around the corner. The thing that came around the corner was a huge dark brown wolf with bloody jaws and sharp claws. A high scream was heard and it bounced on the walls, loud and terrified. It took a while before I realized that the scream came from me. The wolf roared loudly and in the blink of an eye, Alec was at my side. He pushed me up against the wall, covering my mouth with one hand and holding me with the other. He hushed me quietly and stroked my hair. At the same time as Alec calmed me, Santiago attacked the giant wolf and they were circling each other. It was only a half circle, though Santiago never let the wolf get close to Jane, who stood just a few feet away, looking extremely focused. I wondered why she didn’t just use her powers on the wolf, but before I’d even finished that thought, another wolf came around the corner. It was instant thrown to the floor, whining and squirming. I realized that Jane had waited for the other wolf, though Santiago couldn’t handle two wolves without getting hurt in the process. I wanted to close my eyes and hide myself in Alec’s arms, but I couldn’t. Instead I watched Jane walk towards the defenseless wolf, bend down, put her hand on the wolf’s furry chest and rip out its heart. A low, painful squeal was heard from the both of the wolves. One of them squealed of pain and fear just before it died, and the other one squealed of pain and loss of a pack member and a brother. I could see the sorrow in the wolf’s eyes, and even though it wanted to kill us, I felt bad for it. I knew how strong the bond between pack members were, I’d been in one. The only thing keeping me from crying was the fact that none of these wolves were Jacob or anyone from his pack. This was other werewolves, bad werewolves who’d tried to kill us. And one of them was still trying. The short pain of a lost brother had made the wolf distracted for a split second, which was enough for Santiago to throw the wolf against the wall, creating a huge hole. I’d expected the wolf to jump right up and attack again, but it just lay there, starring empty into the air. At first I thought it was dead, but then I saw Alec look at it and I realized that he was using his gift on the wolf.

“That’s the one we need”, Alec confirmed. Felix and Santiago immediately lifted the wolf out of the hole in the wall and out to the car. I didn’t follow them, but I heard the thud when they put the wolf in the trunk and then the slam when they closed it. I wondered how the huge wolf could fit in the trunk, but then I realized that it had probably turned into its human form. Jane and Demetri also went out to the car, but I couldn’t move. There were so many thoughts and feelings in my head at the same time. I was glad and relieved that none of these wolves was someone that I knew and loved, scared of what I just witnessed and most of all, very aware of the fact that I was in Alec’s arms. When all the action had been going on, I hadn’t noticed the way Alec protected and held me. I was pressed up against the wall with his arms tight around me, so he could run out of the house if needed to. He was protecting me with his body, and it was also pressed tightly against mine. Normally, I would’ve turned away and acted like I didn’t care as I tried not to blush, but during the circumstances, I didn’t care. I was terrified, filled with adrenalin and couldn’t get the image of Jane ripping out the wolf’s heart out of my head. So instead of pushing him away and keeping my dignity and my feelings secure, I threw my arms around his neck, leaning my head against his chest and started to cry. I cried loudly and my whole body shook with spasms as I cried out all the fear and sorrow. I cried over the dead wolf, over Jacob, over my family and over everything that I’d kept inside of me for so long. I didn’t care if I showed myself vulnerable to Alec or anyone else. I just cried and let all my feelings out in the open for every one to watch. As I cried, Alec didn’t say a word. He just hugged me tightly and stroked my hair. His cold, hard arms made me feel secure and as the time went by I started to calm down. Just being near Alec soothed me and eventually, I stopped crying.  For a while we just stood there. His firm embrace surrounded me and I never wanted to move. The wonderful smell of lemon balm, mint, pine and licorice filled my lungs and it felt like home. For the first time in months, I was home. Here, in Alec’s arms, I was safe.

Even though it seemed like none of us wanted to let go of each other, we all had to get going before more wolves decided to visit. Slowly, we let go. When we faced each other, I met his gaze. His eyes were a little darker than usual but the fire was still there. It didn’t seem to matter what color his eyes had, the fire always burned. When we stood there, I wanted to say a million things to him. But none of the words came out. Instead we started to walk to the cars. When we came out of the house, Jane shot a hateful glance at me and I swore that she used her gift on me for an extremely short second. A shock of pain flowed through my body, but it happened so quickly I wasn’t sure if it was real or if I’d just imagined it.

“Felix’s driving the other car, so you’re going to ride with him” Alec said and pushed me in Felix direction. “We’ll meet you at our hotel when we’re done here.” I started to walk towards Felix on stiff legs, nodding my head several times. My body screamed after Alec’s arms, screamed for them to hold me again. I didn’t want to leave him; I didn’t want him to stay here and “be done” with things. I wanted him to come with me and be safe. But I knew that we were still on a mission and I had to behave. So, without looking at Alec or anyone else, I got in the car and leaned my head against the seat. Felix was quick to follow me and soon we were driving along the same road as we’d come from. During the ride I thought about what had happened in the house. I thought about Alec’s arms around me, how he’d made me feel, and the way my heart raced when I saw him and how the butterflies always haunted my stomach in his presents. Not until now, I realized how blind I’ve been. I’d been blind to the way my feelings had grown for him. Before, I hadn’t been able to put a name on my feelings for Alec, but now I could. I loved him, and I had loved him for a while now.

 

 

As we walked through the rooms I felt a familiar smell, but I couldn’t place it anywhere. The knowledge of what smell it was lay just out of reach and it bugged me. I tried not to think about it and focus on the mission, but every time I managed to stop thinking about it, the thought sneaked back into my head. Alec and the others walked carefully through the rooms in the small house. At first I’d been walking a bit behind the others, looking around, but then the familiar smell grew stronger and Felix and Demetri was quickly behind me. Alec, Jane and Santiago walked in front of me. Santiago was the best fighter, so he took the lead. That way he could easily attack an immediate threat. After him walked Jane and Alec, side by side. They weren’t the best fighters, but their powers were strong enough to disarm any threat what so ever. I walked in the middle of the group, presumably because I didn’t have any offensive powers and wasn’t such a good fighter either. Felix and Demetri walked behind me, ready to take on any enemy that attacked from behind. With other words, I was safe. Even though I didn’t understand what the threat was, there obviously was one. The rest of the group watched every inch of the house, searching for a potential threat. The tension in the air was almost touchable. It lay in the air, waiting – just like the rest of us – for something to happen. 

I helgen så har jag varit och hjälp till med att filma en liten video av mina två vänner Matilda och marcus när dom sjunger Let her go av Passenger. Tänkte att jag skulle dela den här så ni också kan kolla in de super duktiga männiksorna! 

 

Kolla in Matilda och markus på: http://youtu.be/UUpqCiUIq5E 

Glöm inte att kommentera, gilla och prenumerera! 

 

 

 Här är kapitel 7, bättre sent än aldrig - igen. 

When we got off the plane, I seated myself as far away from Alec as possible. Sadly, that led to me sitting next to Felix, who kept poking me with his elbow and giving me funny looks. Normally, I would have laughed and shook my head at him, but know I was way too busy thinking about Alec. My feelings about him were everywhere and I couldn’t possibly concentrate. I tried to focus on the mission, but soon I found myself thinking about Alec; the way his hair moved in the wind or the way he looked at me when I said something he thought was funny. It was wrong to think about how happy he made me; I mean he was nowhere near suitable for me. But on the other hand, what made it so wrong? Jacob wasn’t here, he’d left me. And who said that Alec was so wrong? The commitment to Alec would just keep me closer to the Volturi, so Aro wouldn’t mind. But the question was if Jane would like it, and if Alec even liked me at all.

“Come on, sleepyhead” Felix said and winked at me before he grabbed my arm gently and helped me up from my seat. It was weird how Felix and I had become friends, or friend like at least. Felix was actually really nice when you got to know him. He wasn’t so hard and scary like the others, he was fun and light. How he ended up in the Volturi in the first place was something I wondered every day. Maybe he was left with no one like me, and just wanted a place to belong to.  

“Renesmee, you’re coming with me.” Alec’s voice hung in the air and I turned my head to him – forgetting every thought I’d just had in my head. Those red eyes looked at me and I was pretty sure he could see my soul, my spirit. This was the second time he’d said my name out loud and though it still wasn’t something special about him saying my name, I stilled shivered and my heart started to beat even faster than it already did. If Alec heard it, he didn’t show it. Jane, on the other hand, gave me a ferocious gaze and feared that she would use her gift on me. The others must have seen Jane’s gaze, because they all took a step closer to me and Alec gave Jane a quick glance. For a second she froze and her eyes turned blank, as she couldn’t see anything. And then I realized that Jane couldn’t actually see anything, Alec was using his gift on her.

“Give me my senses back”, she hissed. Alec shook his head in something that looked like amusement. He put a hand on my shoulder and sighed. Jane immediately blinked and looked at her brother. She looked like she wanted to scratch out his eyes and make him eat them, but she knew he’d only numb her again. Her lip started to pout out a little when she realized that she’d lost, but she quickly regained her poker face and secured her cloak before she went outside. Felix, Santiago and Demetri quickly followed her, but when I intended to join them, Alec held me back and closed the door right in front of me.

“Wait a minute”, he said and put both his hands on my shoulders. My heart immediately started to race and I blushed. For a split second Alec touched my cheek, staring at my face. I froze and stared back, but the moment vanished just as quickly as it had come and Alec straightened up and looked at me. His hands were back on my shoulders and I could feel his cold fingers through my thin cardigan.

“This mission is not simple. It will be hard for you and once you’re in, you can’t get out. This is serious, and even though it’s your first time, no one will show you mercy on the field. Do you get it?” Alec’s grip around my shoulders had hardened and it almost hurt. His words made me speechless and the only answer I could give him was a nod. What was this mission about? What was so hard that I couldn’t handle it? Did he not want me on the team or was there actually something dangerous?

“Do you understand?” he repeated and looked me deep in the eye. The fiery color in his made me brave and I nodded once more.

“Yes, I understand”, I said and tried to look as serious as possible - though it was very hard. Alec was standing very close, and it was hard to focus on anything other than that. But luckily I must have looked serious enough, ‘cause Alec nodded and squeezed my shoulder once more before he let go and opened the door. Jane and the others hadn’t waited for us, so we had to take a new car. Once again, I was stuck in a car with Alec. He sat just a few inches away and I could feel his wonderful vampire smell. Every vampire had a different smell, my mother smelled like strawberries and my father smelled like sunshine. But this smell, I’d never smelled before. It was a mix between mint, pine, lemon balm and licorice. Whatever it was, it smelled wonderful. The human perfume shops would have died to have this fragrance in their stores.

The car’s soft engine hummed quietly in the background as we drove to our next location. I wondered where we were going, but I didn’t dare to ask. Alec seemed to be deep in his thoughts as well and he looked like he didn’t want to be interrupted. As the car slowed down, I could see a small village appear in front of us. The black SUV that Jane and the others had taken was parked outside a wonderful stone house with a little garden outside of it. It was absolutely beautiful and I stared at the small meadow of flowers in front of the car. As I stepped out, a thick smell of roses, orchids, sun flowers, tulips and a hundred other kinds of flowers. I looked at Alec and hoped for him to like the flowers as much as I did, but he didn’t even bother to look at them. When I looked around, none of the other vampires did. It was like they didn’t even notice the beautiful masterpiece that lay before their feet. I wanted to say something, but all five of them had a serious look on their faces and I realized that this wasn’t the time to ask them about the flowers. I wondered why they were all so tense, was it the mission? If it was, I didn’t want to know. Before we went inside the house, Alec grabbed something from the back of the car and threw it to me. I caught it in simple reflex and gave it a quick look. A chocked expression appeared on my face. The piece of fabric in my hand that Alec had tossed over the car was nothing less than my cloak. I hadn’t seen it sense I’d put it away in the back of my closet. Apparently, Alec had found it. The fact that he’d gone through my lingerie drawer to find it, made me blush. Some of those lingerie’s were pretty… revealing.

“T-thank you”, I stuttered and ignored the nausea I felt when I put it on. Even though I was a part of the Volturi, the cloaks would always symbolize fear and death. Surprisingly, the cloak was really comfortable and kept me warm and safe from the wind. When I looked at Alec he gave me a look that seemed to say are you okay, I nodded at him and smiled – hoping to secure him that I was fine.

“Let’s go”, he said and I suddenly felt anxious.  

Som utlovat kommer jag under hela sommaren fram till den tionde augusti att läsa en massa böcker som ni tipsat om. Hittils har jag läst Älskar - Hatar och nu Cirkeln. Så nu tänkte jag att jag ska skriva en liten bokrecension av min nyss lästa bok, Cirkeln.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Efter som att jag har varit lite inaktiv och inte har lagt ut så mycket bilder tänkte jag lägga ut lie bilder nu på hur min helg har varit. Lägger kanske ut en video när jag sjunger också :)

 

Har varit riktigt slö idag, har bara sett på film och myst. Ska dock skriva lite nu hade jag tänkt, lovar att nästa kapitel kommer bli längre än det förra. Kapitel 6 var skamligt kort! Har inte så mycket att skriva om idag, men jag har börjat läsa Cirkeln, så en bok recsension borde ju komma snart :)

Ska nu alldeles strax åka ut till ön med mina underbara morföräldrar + deras söta lilla vovve. Ska skriva lite i helgen och förhoppningsvis skriva ett längre kapitel än det förra. Hoppas också att jag kan sluta vara så rastlös och försöka slappna av, om det nu är möjligt. Håll tummarna för att jag kan njuta av helgen så lovar jag att jag ska skriva så mycket jag kan :) 

Fick en fråga via mejl där Emelie undrade vilka låtar jag lyssnar på när jag skriver. Tänkte att det var en bra idé att lägga ut på bloggen. Så här kommer mina tio absoluta favorit låtar när jag skriver :)

 

• Stay - Rihanna
• Pumped up kicks - Foster the people
• One and only - Adele
• So Cold - Nikisha Reyes
• Soldiers - Gavin Degraw
• Radioactive - Imagine dragons
• Stay - Erik Hassle
• Hurricande - Bridgit Mendler
• Sail - Awolnation
• Get lucky - Daft Punk

Nu är äntligen kapitel 6 här. Det blev kortare än jag hade räknat med, men jag har haft en idé torka. Ni som följer bloggen eller känner mig i verkligenheten vet ju varför. Har varit alldeles för upptagen med att tänka på vad jag skulle göra i kyrkan, och nu när det är över kan jag inte sluta tänka på vad som hände efter att jag hade sjugit. Så här är det, ett tankspritt och ganska kort kapitel. Bli inte allt för besvikna på mig 

 

 

Demetri looked like he wanted to snap my neck for interrupting their argument, but Alec didn’t seem disappointed at all. He just gave Demetri a look and took a few steps towards me.

“Nothing, nothing at all”, Alec waved his hands dismissive and tried to smooth the argument over, like it never happened. I nodded slightly and gave Demetri a look. You could easily tell that he was not satisfied with my interruption. I gave him a shy smile and hoped he’d forgive me. It didn’t look like it. He pursed his lips and shot me an angry gaze.

“It’s not nothing”, he said and glanced at Alec who started to tense as soon as Demetri spoke. “I was just saying how I think you’re more than ready to start playing your part in the missions. But Alec here”, Demetri gestured at Alec – who now looked more stiff than ever. “Doesn’t agree with me, he thinks that you need more training and couldn’t possible take care of yourself out in the field.” Demetri looked at me, waiting for my response. At first I was grateful that Alec had said no, but then I suddenly grew angry. I remembered my dream and the way he’d looked at me. He surely didn’t look at me that way now. Who was he to tell me what I could and couldn’t do? Who was he to tell me that he’d never leave me? Even though the words had only been said in my dream – I still felt them in my heart.

“I believe that I’m ready”, I said and did my best to look cocky. My words had the effect that I wished for, though Alec balled his fist and tensed up even more, while Demetri looked extremely pleased. I also felt pleased, even though I didn’t look forward to being on the field, as Demetri had called it, my anger for Alec’s untrue words – in my dream - made me both brave and stupid. Brave enough to go against Alec and stupid enough to say that I was ready to be a real Volturi guard.

“You don’t know what you’re talking about Renesmee”, Alec said and looked me deep in the eye. I immediately froze and looked at him. He’d never called me by my first name before. My name on his lips sounded amazing and it gave me chills down my spine. Once again, I was mad. The things he did shouldn’t make me feel like this. The butterflies shouldn’t haunt my stomach and my heart shouldn’t be racing. This was wrong. But even though my whole spirit screamed wrong I still couldn’t help myself. When I looked at him, I felt the memory of his lips against mine from the dream. It made my mind foggy and I couldn’t think straight. I swallowed loudly and focused on Demetri instead. If I kept looking at Alec, I knew I would surrender.

“I believe I do, Alec”, I said his name with a harsh twist and smiled at Demetri. “When do we leave?”

We drove in an expensive sport car with deeply tanned windows. Alec and I were the only ones in the car, the rest were seated in another one. I could tell just by looking at Alec from the corner of my eye that he was mad. His hands squeezed the steering wheel hard and he had his usual poker face on. Or Marcus face maybe was a better word. I tried to ignore him for the most of the trip but when we had about twenty minutes left to the private airport where our airplane waited, I sighed and opened my mouth to speak.

“Is something bothering you?” I asked Alec and turned my head to look at him. At first he started to shake his head, but then he wrinkled his forehead and looked like he was considering something.

“You shouldn’t be on this mission”, he said after a few seconds of silence. Now it was my turn to wrinkle my forehead.

“Why?” I said, starting to get angry. Why did he doubt me so much? Was something ever good enough for him? “Why shouldn’t I be on this mission? What could be so awful that you of all people don’t want me onboard?” My voice was sharp when I spoke and I was on the edge of yelling at him. At first, Alec looked like he was going to yell back at me, but then he contained himself and his poker face was back on.

“You’ll see”, was all he said before he turned silent and focused on the road. I also turned silent and thought about what he’d just said. You’ll see, what did he mean by that? My thoughts spun around in my head all the way to the airport. When we arrived, Alec had to say my name three times before I’d even noticed that we’d stopped. The airport we’d stopped at screamed private. A fancy jet stood ready on the runway and I felt a buzz of excitement when I saw it. I’d only flown once or twice in my life and I felt a bit nervous. Alec must have seen the look on my face, because his cold façade weakened for a split second and he smiled at me.

“Don’t worry; I’d catch you if the plane crashes.” His words made the butterflies come back and fly around more than ever. Why did he keep saying these things to me? Both in my dreams and in reality, it just didn’t make any sense. I thought about Alec’s words on the whole plane ride. He sat next to me in the comfortable seats, so I could glance at him from time to time without him – hopefully – noticing. Somewhere in the middle of flight I fell asleep. I didn’t dream this time, I’d just closed my eyes one second, and when I opened them; hours had flown by without me even noticing. Something else that I didn’t notice until it was too late was the fact that my head was resting on Alec’s shoulder. Alec didn’t seem to mind, and for a few seconds, I pretended to be asleep, just so I could lean on him a little while longer. Unfortunately, I couldn’t sleep forever and soon I had to wake up. When I opened my eyes, Alec looked down at me and smiled. I wondered why he didn’t push me away and looked embarrassed, that’s what I would’ve done. But Alec didn’t even seem the slightest uncomfortable, he just gave me a nod, as if to say good morning. His behavior made my thoughts tangle and I slowly rose from my sleeping position. I didn’t get any of this, one second he was cold and distant, and the second he was smiling and looking happy. If it weren’t for the other four vampires on the plane, I’d ask him what was up. Why he’d suddenly shine like the sun and then turned into stone. But if I asked him that now, I’d probably get a lot of questioning looks from the rest of the passengers.       

Jag är rastlös! Ända sedan avslutningen har jag inte kunnat sitta stilla. Förut brukade jag kunna lägga mig i sängen och se på film hela dagen men nu går det inte. Jag kan inte sova, läsa, se på film, vila eller någonting. Idag vaknade jag efter ca tre timmars sömn och mycket tänkande på gårdagen. Efter frukost började jag plocka ut grejor ur flyttkartongerna och städa rummet, vilket jag inte brukar göra ofta. Mamma brukar få tjata på mig i evigheter för att ens få mig att dammsuga, men idag har jag inte kunnat sitta still. Efter jag städat i hundra år åkte jag till stallet och red i två timmar. När jag kom hem efter ridningen var min kropp helt utmattad, men hjärnan gick fortfarande på högvarv. Så jag låg praktiskt tagen som förlamad i sängen och var för pigg för att somna och för trött för att gå upp. Jag vet inte vad jag ska göra eller vad det beror på.

En annan sak som stör mig är att niorna har gått ut. Inte bara för att Fabian försvinner- även om det är riktigt tråkigt också - men jag kommer sakna andra nior också. Emma, Clara, Jonathan, Kim, Suriih, Sanna,  allihop! Ni som känner mig väl vet ju att jag alltid haft lite av en fobi för äldre människor - tonåringar - då jag alltid haft så lågt självförtroende. Men detta året så har jag inte haft det, jag har vågat så mycket mer och känner verkligen att jag skaffat vänner som inte går i min klass. Just därför är det så himla tråkigt att de försvinner och inte kommer komma tillbaka till hösten. Usch vad jag kommer sakna dom! Helst hade jag velat att allihop skulle gå om ett år, men eftersom det inte går så kommer jag bara sakna dom så enormt! 

 

Stor kram till alla nior som gick ut i år, det kommer bli tomt utan er till hösten! <3

 

Som jag lovat er så har jag börjat läsa en massa böcker på era villkor och jag har precis läst ut den första. :)

 

 

 

Är så himla nöjd med min avslutning! Jag gjorde som jag sa att jag skulle göra. Jag tillängande låten till honom och sjöng den. Har aldrig varit så nervös i hela mitt liv, jag darrade i hela kroppen och trodde att jag skulle svimma men jag klarade det och jag känner mig såååå nöjd. Efteråt kom han och kramade mig inte en utan TRE gånger och gav mig en ros. (Den organgea i mitten) Är fortfarande helt darrig men är otroligt glad! 

 

Är så himla nervös just nu, kommer förmodligen vara ännu mer nervös i morgon. Som ni säker vet så är det skolavslutning i morgon och jag ska då sjunga One and Only med Adele i kyrkan. Men jag ska inte bara sjunga, innan jag sjunger ska jag också berätta för en kille - vi kallar honom Joakim - att jag tycker om honom och har gjort det ett tag. Ni som följt min blogg tidigare vet att jag kmo på den här idén för ett tag sen och imorgon så blir den sann. Jag ska gå upp på scenen, berätta vad jag känner och sedan sjunga. När jag sjungit klart ska jag gå och sätta mig och vägra att se generad ut. 

 

Håller tummarna för att jag inte svimmar !

Är tillbaka ifrån den sena och stressiga ridningen. Har hunnit duscha och vilat fötterna en stund, hoppas på att hinna skriva lite innan det är dags att sova. Bjuder på lite fina bilder ifrån ridningen :)

Nu är jag riktigt stressad! Kom precis på att jag ska rida idag och de jag rider för är inte speciellt trevliga när det gäller försenigar. Måste äta och hitta ridkläderna som ligger någonstans i röran, suck. Hatar stress!!!

Har äntligen kommit hem ifrån en hel dag utom hus med hela skolan! Är helt slut men kan bara vila en stund innan jag ska diska och städa innan mamma kommer hem. Fick tillbaka mitt kemi prov idag som jag trodde hade gått rent åt skogen, men icke sa nicke. När jag vänder på bladet och kollar på mitt betyd så står det ett stor A på sidan. Bkev riktigt glad och är fortfarande glad nu, känner på mig att slutbetygen i NO kommer vara bra i år! 

 

Ps: I inlägget uppdatering så hade jag skrivit förkåt, vilket inte var vad jag menade. Det jag skulle skriva var Förlåt. Hoppas ni förståd det :)

Jag har nydligen märkt att när jag skriver så har jag ett favorit ord. I varje kapitel finns det ett ord som utmärker sig bland de andra. I första kapitlet tror jag att det var ordet "Gaze" och i ett annat "Once again". Nu när jag sitter och skriver på kapitel sex så är det ordet "look" av någon anledning. Vet inte riktigt varför, men om man tänker på det så är jag rätt så säker på att man kan hitta ett ord i varje kapitel som utmärker sig som mitt favorit ord just då. 

Tänkte ge er en liten visning av min helg då jag vet att jag varit lite inaktiv och inte fått gjort så mycket som jag velat. Hoppas att ni är nöjda ändå. Kapitel 6 kommer upp snart :)

 

 

 

 

 

Förkåt, igen. Ska verkligen bli aktiv nu men har inte orkat skriva på varken det nya kapitlet eller något annat. Allt har varit så stressigt med flytten. idag har jag en kompis med mig hela dagen så fler inlägg blir det nog inte. Kanske ett senare ikväll. 

Fick ett mejl här om dagen om att starta ett slags bok project, och jag tänkte varför inte? Så nu kommer jag fram till den tionde augusti ( min födelsedag) att läsa en massa böcker som ni läsare föreslår. Det kan vara vilken genre och tjocklek som helst. 

Under hela sommaren kommer jag läsa böckerna och sedan skriva en recension här på bloggen om varje bok.Naturligvis så kommer fortsätta att skriva på fanfiction novellen och ni kommer få ett kapitel varje vecka, som utlovat.

 

Jag har redan fått några böcker att läsa. Tänkte att jag skriver upp dem här så ni vet vad som är aktuellt just nu. Vill ni komma med ett tips på en bok som jag kan läsa kan ni kommentera eller mejla till [email protected]

 

Här kommer ett litet boktips på en av de bästa böckerna jag någonsin läst. Började läsa i går morse och slutade innan kvällsmaten. Riktigt bra bok!

 

 

 

The Indigo spell är den tredje boken i serien Bloodlines som är skriven av Best-seller författaren Richelle Mead. De andra böckerna heter Bloodlines (1) och The golden Lily (2). The Indigo Spell handlar om Sydney Sage, en ung alchemist som börjar ifråga sätta de värderingar hon blivit uppväxt med. Är vampyrer verkligen lika farliga som man tror? Eller kan de också vara älskvärda? Att Sydney förälskar sig i den stöddiga och självsäkra vampyren Adrian gör ju inte saken lättare heller. Men vad händer när man får reda på mer än man ville och när ens hjärta och hjärna inte vill samma saker?

 

Denna boken är helt underbar och jag älskar den till 100%! Det finns inga ord som beskriver hur bra den faktiskt är. Gör er själv en tjänst och läs den.

 

The Indigo Spell för 5/5 stjärnor

 

When I opened my eyes I knew I wasn’t in Volterra anymore. I was outside with my back against the sun, looking into the deep forest. It wasn’t hard to figure out where I was. I’d been here so many times before that I knew it like the back of my hand. This was the meadow where my parents had fallen in love. For a second I just stood there, embracing all the beauty that surrounded me. It was midsummer and the flowers grew high. Everything was so beautiful and full of so many happy memories that I forgot to think about the main issues; how I’ve gotten here and why I was here. Did the Volturi not want me anymore? Was this some kind of illusion? I didn’t want to think about it, but my over-smart vampire brain forced me to question the logic in all of this. What was I really doing here?

“Hello?” I said loudly, hoping to find someone who could provide me some answers. When nothing was heard, I shouted out a hello one more. But nothing this time either. Fear was starting to grow inside of me. Had the Volturi left me? Was I abandoned once more? I refused to dig further into that thought and started to walk around the meadow. The scents from the flowers were almost too much and covered any other smell; which was probably why I didn’t smell him. It was not until he took a step forward as I saw him. Alec. A sudden feeling of relief came over me and I had to strictly control myself so I wouldn’t jump into his arms of happiness.

“I thought you’d left me”, I said and couldn’t stop looking into his eyes. They were just as fiery as usual and made the butterflies return to my stomach. Alec took a few steps forward and tilted his head.

“I’d never leave you.” His words caught me off guard and it was a miracle that my jaw didn’t hit the ground. What did he mean? Did he mean that he’d never leave me because it was his duty to keep me safe until I was capable of doing it myself, or did he mean it in another way? Like he’d never leave me because he cared for me? I shook my head and tossed the thoughts aside. Alec was in the same place has he had been just a minute ago, but something had changed. I squinted at him, trying to figure out what.

“You’re not wearing your cloak”, I said when I finally saw what was missing. Alec nodded slightly and a crooked smile started to grow on his lips. The smiled suited his otherwise cold poker face and made the butterflies in my stomach fly faster. Without his cloak on, I could see his regular clothes. There was nothing special about them, just a dark blue pull-over and a matching pair of black jeans. He had his sleeves rolled up to his elbow, which made his skin sparkle in the sun. I’d seen vampires in the sun before, but this was something special. His red eyes, the cold face and the apathetic voice, it all lost its meaning when he was standing in the sun. I forgot that he’d tried to kill me many years ago and I forgot that he was a soulless killer who drank human blood and didn’t care about his victims. Right here, in the sun, none of that mattered. I was mesmerized by him and without knowing, I started to walk towards him. His eyes lit up with an emotion I’d never seen in his face before. That emotion made my stomach ache from all the butterflies and my heart started racing so fast that I was sure it would break. When there was about two feet between us, I stopped and just looked at him. Alec did the same, and for what felt like hours we just stood there and looked into each other’s eyes. The sun warmed my skin and from the corner of my eye, I could see the beautiful flowers that surrounded us. Sadly, none of that mattered to me. All I could see was Alec and only Alec. I didn’t care about the flowers, or the sun – that I missed so much – or the smell of pine and the sound of birds in the trees. That stuff was oblivious to me. Right now, everything circled around Alec. His eyes, his hair, his smell and the way he smiled at me. That was the only thing I could think about. It was hard to see what he was thinking, but the emotion was still in his eyes.

“What are we doing here?” I asked, still looking into his eyes. Without dropping my gaze he

took a step forward and reach out his hand. At first I thought that he was going to take my hand but he just took a piece of my hair between his fingers and studied it for a while before he gently put it back behind my ear. At one point his cold fingers touch my warm skin and a shiver quickly ran down my spine. It wasn’t a bad shiver though, it was one of those shivers you get when you’re as happy as you could ever be. With a sigh I closed my eyes and concentrated on the feeling of his fingers gently stroking my cheek. When he stopped I opened my eyes and looked at him. His eyes had lost its fire and were full of concern.

“Does everything need a reason?” he said, answering my earlier question. The logic part of me wanted to say yes, of course everything needed a reason. But the other part of me didn’t want to listen.

“No”, I said and shook my head – still without dropping his gaze. “Everything doesn’t need a reason.” Before I’d even finished my sentence, the flame was back in his eyes and he looked at me with a burning desire. He gestured me to sit down on the meadow and I quickly did as he pleased. There was nothing in my head besides Alec. When he sat down beside me I could feel the wonderful smell of vampire. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, letting myself be consumed of Alec. His cold fingers traced my jawline as he turned my head against him. I still didn’t open my eyes, I trusted Alec. When his thumb stroked my lips I couldn’t help it, I sighed in delight and opened my eyes. The first thing I saw was the intense fire in his eyes. The fire was closer than I thought which made me jump. For almost a whole second we sat there, frozen, waiting for the other person to react. When I didn’t do anything, Alec gave me a crooked smile and took my face between both of his hands.

“You’re so beautiful”, he said. The honesty in his eyes made me soften and I leaned my cheek against his palm. A million thoughts and emotions ran through my head, but there was only one thought and one emotion I focused on. Alec and the burning flame of desire to him. Slowly, I raised my hand and ran my fingers through his hair. It was so soft and tickled my palm. Alec looked at me with that burning gaze and my whole spirit trembled. Without knowing, we both drifted towards each other until only a few inched separated us. His wonderful breath surrounded me and I inhaled as much as possible. Those fiery red eyes looked at me and made me feel almost lightheaded.  When he removed one of his hands from my face and put it on my hip, I knew this was it. We were going to kiss. Every cell in my body waited for it, wanted it. And then it finally happened. His cold lips met mine and we both lingered around each other. My breath was uneven and there was no way I got enough air. But I couldn’t stop kissing him, he was everywhere and I was happy to be in the middle of it.

Right in the middle of our kiss, loud and angry voiced interrupted. I wrinkled my forehead and tried to ignore them, but Alec was gone. His arms were no longer around me, and I couldn’t smell him. Quickly, I opened my eyes. I was no longer on the meadow. The jade green cheats was tangled in my legs and I was in my bed in Volterra. The angry voices I heard came from Demetri and Alec. I turned my head to look at them. They hadn’t noticed that I was awake yet, and I took a moment to just look at Alec. Not until now, I realized that it had all been a dream, something from my imagination. It was surprising to feel how disappointed I was. I wasn’t supposed to be disappointed; Alec wasn’t my prince Charming in shining armor. He was a Volturi guard, a soulless killer. That thought made me sadder than it should have, and I focused on the fight between the two vampires instead.

“She is nowhere near ready”, Alec growled. He looked absolutely furious and Demetri had the exact same look on his face.

“I don’t care if she’s ready or not, we need her now.” Demetri’s words made Alec even angrier and I feared that they were going to start hitting each other any minute. They continued to argue for a while, but it wasn’t until Alec pointed at me that I figured out who they were talking about. Their argument was about me. It was strange, why would they argue about me? And what was it that I wasn’t ready for? Carefully, I sat up and looked at the two furious men. They hadn’t noticed that I was awake yet. Both of them were too busy to fight over something that had to do with me, that they didn’t notice the person they were actually arguing about.

Förlåt för min inaktivitet, men vi har flyttar ur lägenheten och jag har inte haft tillgång till internet på hela veckan. Utan internet har jag dock hunnit skriva färdigt kapitel 5 och kommer publicera den så snart som möjligt. Det är bara lite fin slipning kvar. Hoppas ni inte har tröttnat på mig och förlåt än en gång för inaktiviteten. 

Kapitel 5 av beneath the facade kommer att komma lite senare än beräknat då jag inte har haft tid att skriva det. Har haft så mycket att göra denna vecka, soaré och soaré träning, ridning och prov + att vi ska flytta den här helgen så det finns lite mycket att göra. Men jag lovar att kapitlet ska komma upp så snart som möjligt!