Tänkte ge er en liten visning av min helg då jag vet att jag varit lite inaktiv och inte fått gjort så mycket som jag velat. Hoppas att ni är nöjda ändå. Kapitel 6 kommer upp snart :)

 

 

 

 

 

Förkåt, igen. Ska verkligen bli aktiv nu men har inte orkat skriva på varken det nya kapitlet eller något annat. Allt har varit så stressigt med flytten. idag har jag en kompis med mig hela dagen så fler inlägg blir det nog inte. Kanske ett senare ikväll. 

Fick ett mejl här om dagen om att starta ett slags bok project, och jag tänkte varför inte? Så nu kommer jag fram till den tionde augusti ( min födelsedag) att läsa en massa böcker som ni läsare föreslår. Det kan vara vilken genre och tjocklek som helst. 

Under hela sommaren kommer jag läsa böckerna och sedan skriva en recension här på bloggen om varje bok.Naturligvis så kommer fortsätta att skriva på fanfiction novellen och ni kommer få ett kapitel varje vecka, som utlovat.

 

Jag har redan fått några böcker att läsa. Tänkte att jag skriver upp dem här så ni vet vad som är aktuellt just nu. Vill ni komma med ett tips på en bok som jag kan läsa kan ni kommentera eller mejla till [email protected]

 

Här kommer ett litet boktips på en av de bästa böckerna jag någonsin läst. Började läsa i går morse och slutade innan kvällsmaten. Riktigt bra bok!

 

 

 

The Indigo spell är den tredje boken i serien Bloodlines som är skriven av Best-seller författaren Richelle Mead. De andra böckerna heter Bloodlines (1) och The golden Lily (2). The Indigo Spell handlar om Sydney Sage, en ung alchemist som börjar ifråga sätta de värderingar hon blivit uppväxt med. Är vampyrer verkligen lika farliga som man tror? Eller kan de också vara älskvärda? Att Sydney förälskar sig i den stöddiga och självsäkra vampyren Adrian gör ju inte saken lättare heller. Men vad händer när man får reda på mer än man ville och när ens hjärta och hjärna inte vill samma saker?

 

Denna boken är helt underbar och jag älskar den till 100%! Det finns inga ord som beskriver hur bra den faktiskt är. Gör er själv en tjänst och läs den.

 

The Indigo Spell för 5/5 stjärnor

 

When I opened my eyes I knew I wasn’t in Volterra anymore. I was outside with my back against the sun, looking into the deep forest. It wasn’t hard to figure out where I was. I’d been here so many times before that I knew it like the back of my hand. This was the meadow where my parents had fallen in love. For a second I just stood there, embracing all the beauty that surrounded me. It was midsummer and the flowers grew high. Everything was so beautiful and full of so many happy memories that I forgot to think about the main issues; how I’ve gotten here and why I was here. Did the Volturi not want me anymore? Was this some kind of illusion? I didn’t want to think about it, but my over-smart vampire brain forced me to question the logic in all of this. What was I really doing here?

“Hello?” I said loudly, hoping to find someone who could provide me some answers. When nothing was heard, I shouted out a hello one more. But nothing this time either. Fear was starting to grow inside of me. Had the Volturi left me? Was I abandoned once more? I refused to dig further into that thought and started to walk around the meadow. The scents from the flowers were almost too much and covered any other smell; which was probably why I didn’t smell him. It was not until he took a step forward as I saw him. Alec. A sudden feeling of relief came over me and I had to strictly control myself so I wouldn’t jump into his arms of happiness.

“I thought you’d left me”, I said and couldn’t stop looking into his eyes. They were just as fiery as usual and made the butterflies return to my stomach. Alec took a few steps forward and tilted his head.

“I’d never leave you.” His words caught me off guard and it was a miracle that my jaw didn’t hit the ground. What did he mean? Did he mean that he’d never leave me because it was his duty to keep me safe until I was capable of doing it myself, or did he mean it in another way? Like he’d never leave me because he cared for me? I shook my head and tossed the thoughts aside. Alec was in the same place has he had been just a minute ago, but something had changed. I squinted at him, trying to figure out what.

“You’re not wearing your cloak”, I said when I finally saw what was missing. Alec nodded slightly and a crooked smile started to grow on his lips. The smiled suited his otherwise cold poker face and made the butterflies in my stomach fly faster. Without his cloak on, I could see his regular clothes. There was nothing special about them, just a dark blue pull-over and a matching pair of black jeans. He had his sleeves rolled up to his elbow, which made his skin sparkle in the sun. I’d seen vampires in the sun before, but this was something special. His red eyes, the cold face and the apathetic voice, it all lost its meaning when he was standing in the sun. I forgot that he’d tried to kill me many years ago and I forgot that he was a soulless killer who drank human blood and didn’t care about his victims. Right here, in the sun, none of that mattered. I was mesmerized by him and without knowing, I started to walk towards him. His eyes lit up with an emotion I’d never seen in his face before. That emotion made my stomach ache from all the butterflies and my heart started racing so fast that I was sure it would break. When there was about two feet between us, I stopped and just looked at him. Alec did the same, and for what felt like hours we just stood there and looked into each other’s eyes. The sun warmed my skin and from the corner of my eye, I could see the beautiful flowers that surrounded us. Sadly, none of that mattered to me. All I could see was Alec and only Alec. I didn’t care about the flowers, or the sun – that I missed so much – or the smell of pine and the sound of birds in the trees. That stuff was oblivious to me. Right now, everything circled around Alec. His eyes, his hair, his smell and the way he smiled at me. That was the only thing I could think about. It was hard to see what he was thinking, but the emotion was still in his eyes.

“What are we doing here?” I asked, still looking into his eyes. Without dropping my gaze he

took a step forward and reach out his hand. At first I thought that he was going to take my hand but he just took a piece of my hair between his fingers and studied it for a while before he gently put it back behind my ear. At one point his cold fingers touch my warm skin and a shiver quickly ran down my spine. It wasn’t a bad shiver though, it was one of those shivers you get when you’re as happy as you could ever be. With a sigh I closed my eyes and concentrated on the feeling of his fingers gently stroking my cheek. When he stopped I opened my eyes and looked at him. His eyes had lost its fire and were full of concern.

“Does everything need a reason?” he said, answering my earlier question. The logic part of me wanted to say yes, of course everything needed a reason. But the other part of me didn’t want to listen.

“No”, I said and shook my head – still without dropping his gaze. “Everything doesn’t need a reason.” Before I’d even finished my sentence, the flame was back in his eyes and he looked at me with a burning desire. He gestured me to sit down on the meadow and I quickly did as he pleased. There was nothing in my head besides Alec. When he sat down beside me I could feel the wonderful smell of vampire. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, letting myself be consumed of Alec. His cold fingers traced my jawline as he turned my head against him. I still didn’t open my eyes, I trusted Alec. When his thumb stroked my lips I couldn’t help it, I sighed in delight and opened my eyes. The first thing I saw was the intense fire in his eyes. The fire was closer than I thought which made me jump. For almost a whole second we sat there, frozen, waiting for the other person to react. When I didn’t do anything, Alec gave me a crooked smile and took my face between both of his hands.

“You’re so beautiful”, he said. The honesty in his eyes made me soften and I leaned my cheek against his palm. A million thoughts and emotions ran through my head, but there was only one thought and one emotion I focused on. Alec and the burning flame of desire to him. Slowly, I raised my hand and ran my fingers through his hair. It was so soft and tickled my palm. Alec looked at me with that burning gaze and my whole spirit trembled. Without knowing, we both drifted towards each other until only a few inched separated us. His wonderful breath surrounded me and I inhaled as much as possible. Those fiery red eyes looked at me and made me feel almost lightheaded.  When he removed one of his hands from my face and put it on my hip, I knew this was it. We were going to kiss. Every cell in my body waited for it, wanted it. And then it finally happened. His cold lips met mine and we both lingered around each other. My breath was uneven and there was no way I got enough air. But I couldn’t stop kissing him, he was everywhere and I was happy to be in the middle of it.

Right in the middle of our kiss, loud and angry voiced interrupted. I wrinkled my forehead and tried to ignore them, but Alec was gone. His arms were no longer around me, and I couldn’t smell him. Quickly, I opened my eyes. I was no longer on the meadow. The jade green cheats was tangled in my legs and I was in my bed in Volterra. The angry voices I heard came from Demetri and Alec. I turned my head to look at them. They hadn’t noticed that I was awake yet, and I took a moment to just look at Alec. Not until now, I realized that it had all been a dream, something from my imagination. It was surprising to feel how disappointed I was. I wasn’t supposed to be disappointed; Alec wasn’t my prince Charming in shining armor. He was a Volturi guard, a soulless killer. That thought made me sadder than it should have, and I focused on the fight between the two vampires instead.

“She is nowhere near ready”, Alec growled. He looked absolutely furious and Demetri had the exact same look on his face.

“I don’t care if she’s ready or not, we need her now.” Demetri’s words made Alec even angrier and I feared that they were going to start hitting each other any minute. They continued to argue for a while, but it wasn’t until Alec pointed at me that I figured out who they were talking about. Their argument was about me. It was strange, why would they argue about me? And what was it that I wasn’t ready for? Carefully, I sat up and looked at the two furious men. They hadn’t noticed that I was awake yet. Both of them were too busy to fight over something that had to do with me, that they didn’t notice the person they were actually arguing about.

Förlåt för min inaktivitet, men vi har flyttar ur lägenheten och jag har inte haft tillgång till internet på hela veckan. Utan internet har jag dock hunnit skriva färdigt kapitel 5 och kommer publicera den så snart som möjligt. Det är bara lite fin slipning kvar. Hoppas ni inte har tröttnat på mig och förlåt än en gång för inaktiviteten. 

Kapitel 5 av beneath the facade kommer att komma lite senare än beräknat då jag inte har haft tid att skriva det. Har haft så mycket att göra denna vecka, soaré och soaré träning, ridning och prov + att vi ska flytta den här helgen så det finns lite mycket att göra. Men jag lovar att kapitlet ska komma upp så snart som möjligt!

Nu har jag ett riktigt dilemma! Jag har gillat en viss kille på våran skola - vi kan kalla honom Joakim - i snart fem månader nu, men aldrig vågat säga något då jag är så rädd för att han inte ska tycka om mig med. Men problemet är att han går ut i år och jag vet inte om jag kommer se honom igen, så därför har jag en idé. Många ska sjunga på avslutningen och då funderar jag på att sjunga en låt till honom. Låten skulle då vara "One and Only" med Adele, för den låten beskriver verkligen hur jag känner och vad jag vill. Men frågan är om jag vågar, och om jag vågar; vad ska jag göra? Ska jag säga att den är till honom eller ska jag bara sjunga låten och låta det bli ett privat avsked enbart för mig? Just nu har jag ingen aning. Har ni lust att hjälpa mig att bestämma så får ni gärna lämna en kommentar eller mejla. 

Vill verkligen inte att han ska gå ut i år. Önskar att jag hade haft ett år till på mig, för vi har precis börjar lära känna varandra. Suck. Vad ska jag göra? 

Jeez! Är dödstrött och har ont precis överallt efter en häktisk dag. Har ringt sponsorer hela förmiddagen och tränat på Soarén hela eftermiddagen, + att jag har ridit och gått hem ( tog lite mer än 30 minuter ) i stekande hetta, dirket solsken och en jävligt tung ryggsäck. Skulle egentligen upp och träna mer nu efter maten, men jag orkar inte. Har sträckt lårmuskeln också, så jag ska vila upp mig så att jag är på topp imorgon. 

Hinner kanske skriva lite senare om jag inte somnar först. 

The days passed in a blur. We trained some more self-defense, but Alec never grabbed my waist or held me in his arms like he’d done the first time. At first I thought that it was just a coincidence, but then I noticed that there were times when he let me get away, just so he didn’t have to grab me. I couldn’t help but to feel offended, was there something wrong with me? Why did he let me win? But then a small, careful thought sneaked in to my head and confused me. What if he had felt something as well, that first day of training? What if that was the reason why he never touched me anymore? The thought of it made me scared, but I never showed it. I tried to focus on other things, like reading or trying on clothes. But Alec was always in the back of my mind. Something else that always lingered around me was my thirst. I still refused to drink any human blood, which led to that I was left with no blood at all. Luckily, I could survive on human food as well. It didn’t taste as good as blood, but it kept my stomach satisfied and Alec annoyed. But after a week the change was starting to show. Without drinking blood on regular bases my body started to become more and more human. My skin was still hard as marble, but my speed and strength weakened and it didn’t take much for Alec to beat me when we trained - not that it had in the first place. I supposed that Aro found out about it after a while because suddenly Felix came and got me from my room.

“Aro sends for you”, he said and held out one hand to escort me to the Volturi tower. I swallowed loudly and rose from the chair next to the beautiful mahogany desk. It took longer for us to walk to the Volturi tower this time than what it had done the last time. If Felix thought that I was slow, he didn’t show it. He just walked beside me with a glassy look on his face. Just like before, we took an elevator up to the main floor and walked from there. As we rounded the corner that led to the tower my fluttering heart skipped a beat. What did Aro want from me? I million thoughts ran through my head in the blink of an eye. Did he have news about my family, or had I done something wrong? Was he not pleased with my training? I stopped thinking as we came in to sight. The three brothers were seated as usual in the velvet thrones in the middle of the circular room. This time Aro didn’t rise when he saw me, he just tilted his head and gave me a concerning look.

“Dear, dear Renesmee”, Aro sighed and shook his head slowly. “A little bird whispered in my ear and gave me some news about you. He says that you refuse to drink human blood.”  The guards in the room gave me a questioning look when they heard their Masters words. The only one who didn’t even turn his head was Alec. I hadn’t noticed him until now, but when I saw him, the butterflies returned one by one. When I dared to glance at him, he met my gaze and held it for what seemed like hours. The sound of someone clearing his throat made me look away.

“That’s correct”, I said and turned to Aro. “It’s the way I was raised and I don’t find it right to kill innocent people.” Aro pursed his lips and wrinkled his eyebrows, but didn’t say anything. I held my breath and waited for his response. But there was none. Caius started to become impatient and looked at his brother before he spoke.

“Where are your thoughts, Aro?” He said and put a hand on his brother’s shoulder. Aro patted Caius hand and rose from his throne.

“My thoughts, dear brother, my thoughts surround our beloved Renesmee. She’s getting weaker, can’t you see?” Aro pointed at me to clarify his point. I felt pretty uncomfortable when everybody followed Aro’s hand and looked at me with their fiery red eyes. To take the attention of my face, I stroked my arm and looked down. Without looking, I could sense – and hear – Aro walking across the room until he stood right in front of me. His cold fingers lifted my chin gently and I was suddenly looking in to the milky lenses of the old vampire.

“How about a compromise?” he said in his tenor voice. My eyes widened in surprise. A compromise, what did he mean? Aro must have seen my expression because he laughed a little before he explained.

“You won’t drink human blood, because you don’t want to kill innocent people…”

“Any people”, I interrupted and received some disliking looks, but Aro didn’t mind.

“Of course”, He said and nodded. “But no Volturi member is allowed to drink animal blood. So my suggestion dear Renesmee is that you drink human blood from blood bags – donated of course. That way you will have the strength and speed that you need, and you won’t go against you’re principals. How does that sound?” At first I didn’t know what to say. Did I really want to drink human blood at all? I’d drunk it when I was a baby, but that had only been for a few weeks. For a second it was completely quiet, the only thing you could hear were the even breaths from the guards and my fluttering heart. Aro looked eagerly at me, waiting for me to speak. And when I did, his expression got satisfied.

“Well, I suppose it’s okay if no one dies.” Aro clapped his hands in delight and waved at one of the guards. In the blink of an eye the guard was at his side.

“Yes, Master?” the woman said and bowed her head.

“Dear Ophelia, would you be so kind and go to the nearest hospital and get us some blood?” Aro put a hand on Ophelia’s shoulder and smiled at her. I was once more disgusted by the guard’s affection for their Masters. Couldn’t they at least try to hide it?

“Of course, Master”, Ophelia said and curtsied a little before she disapeared. I imagined myself standing there, in front of the three Volturi brothers, clothed in a dark coat, curtsying and bowing my head to them. The thought made me wrinkle my nose and feel a bit nauseous.

“The blood will be placed in the refrigerator in your room. I hope you’ll get stronger soon, dear Renesmee”, Aro said before he walked back to his chair. As soon as Aro was seated, Felix walked over to my side and escorted me out of the tower. Back on the main floor, Alec caught up to us. With only a look he got Felix to nod a goodbye to me and then disappear in the blink of an eye. As soon as Felix was gone, the butterflies came back. I wanted to ask Alec what he was doing here, why Felix couldn’t escort me to my room? But I didn’t dare to speak, afraid that I would say something stupid. When we reached the tunnels Alec broke the silence.

“I’m glad you’re agreed to drink the blood”, he said without looking at me. I almost stopped at the surprise of his words.

“You are?” I asked and glanced at him from the corner of my eye.

“Yes”, he said – still without looking at me. “You’ll get stronger and faster, which you’ll need when you’re out on missions.”

“Missions?”

“Well, of course. What do you think your position in the Volturi guard is? You’re placed with me, Jane, Felix, Demetri and Santiago. We’re the ones who’s often send out when someone has broken a law.” Alec’s words made me numb and speechless. But at the same time, a small piece of me was happy over the fact that I was going to work with Alec. I quickly pushed the thought away and focused on the important things. Like the fact that I was going to be on missions.

“Why? I’m not strong or have any special powers. I can only let people read my thoughts and show them pictures.” I didn’t get any of this. What use was I as a fighter when any untrained vampire could beat me without even trying? Alec looked at me and raised an eyebrow.

“You’re almost human; you can investigate humans without scaring them to death.” Alec looked at me like I was a total retard before he opened the door to my room. I hadn’t realized that we’d gone so far, so fast. Talking to Alec made time go so much faster. I didn’t answer him; I just nodded and stepped inside my room. At first I didn’t know what to do, but then I saw the midnight blue cover of Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet. I quickly ran to the bookcase and took the book from its place on the shelf. The golden letters glowed a little in the light from the lamp. I’d expected Alec to be gone, but when I sat down on the bed to read my book, I saw him standing in the door, leaned against its frame. When he saw that I was watching him, he took a step forward and closed the door.

“Are you staying?” I asked him and rested my head against the wall near the head of the bed. Alec nodded and the shadow of a smile played on his lips.

“I have nowhere else to go”, he said and sat down on the chair next to my desk. In my opinion, he was way too close for me to concentrate on the book, but he didn’t look like he was about to move any time soon. 

I tried to read for about thirty minutes before I closed the book and put it on my nightstand. Alec had studied me the whole time – the main reason that I couldn’t concentrate on my reading – and didn’t stop when I met his gaze. I wished that I could force him to leave, but I didn’t even dare to speak. For a while, we just sat there; three feet from each other, looking deep into the other persons eyes. When my heart started to beat faster I looked away. What was wrong with me? I wasn’t supposed to get butterflies every time he was near and my heart wasn’t supposed to beat faster when he looked at me.  What about Jacob, my dear, sweet Jacob? What about the fact that Alec was a cruel killer who drank human blood and killed anyone as long as his Master said it was okay? That’s not the guy I wanted to fall in love with. I wanted to fall in love with someone like Jacob. But Jacob had left, just like the rest of my family. Maybe this was my family now, a bunch of power crazy lunatics.  

“Is something bothering you?” Alec said and broke my concentration. I hadn’t realized that I’d been looking – or staring – at him while I’d been lost in my own thoughts.

“No, I’m just sleepy”, I said and faked a yawn. Alec nodded leaned forward. At first I thought that he was going to kiss me, but of course he didn’t. He just grabbed my book from the nightstand and then leaned back again.

“Maybe you should sleep then.” Alec smiled a crooked smile at me before he opened the book and started to read it. Still chocked from the thought of him kissing me, I managed to nod lightly and stumble towards the bathroom. I thought that I could hear Alec cluck from his chair, but I wasn’t sure. When I heard the bathroom door close behind me, I sighed in relief and leaned my head against the sink.

“What’s wrong with you?” I mouthed to myself and banged my head in the sink a few times before started to make myself ready for bed. It took longer than usual for me to change into PJs and braid my hair, mostly because I wanted to clear my head – which was absolutely impossible when Alec was around and in sight. Sadly, I could only drag my feet behind for so long. After almost an hour in the bathroom, I slowly opened the door and walked over to my bed. I deeply regretted that I’d chosen shorts instead of sweatpants to the bottom of my PJs. Luckily, Alec didn’t seem to notice me until I was safe and sound in my bed.

“Are you going to stay here?” I asked and hoped that his answered would be a no. Alec looked like he found me amusing somehow and raised one eyebrow.

“Do you want me to leave?” My jaw dropped about a feet when I heard his answer to my question. What did you answer to that? Yes, please do? Even though his presents made me uncomfortable, I didn’t want to be rude. I slowly shook my head and looked down at my hands.

“You can stay if you want to”, I whispered and realized how pathetic I sounded. Alec seemed to agree with me, ‘cause he choked a laughter a cough.

“Good night, Alec”, I said and turned my back to him. Once I lay in a comfortable position, I closed my eyes and fell asleep to the hope of that he’d be gone in the morning. 

 

Har hittat en låt som jag bara ÄLSKAR! Blir på riktigt skrivar humör, så ni kan kanske räkna med kapitel fyra innan torsdag.

Låten heter Soldier och är sjungen av Gavin DeGraw. Vill ni lyssna på låten finns den här:
http://youtu.be/2TuyT0knklM

 

 

Blir så frustrerad på min mamma! Vaknar upp och blir bemött av ett bitch humör som jag inte gjort ett skit för att förtjäna. Nu har hon förstört hela dagen, så någon skrivning blir det inte. Vet inte om jag hinner med ett nytt kapitel tills i morgon heller, hade hunnit om inte mamma förstört hela jävla morgonen. Blir sååååååååååå arg! Ska i alla fall rida idag, håller tummarna för att det går bra.